Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Because it's fitting...

Today, Shell from Things I Can't Say is hosting "Pour Your Heart Out Wednesday", and I got some stuff to say.

And I'm gonna dump it on y'all.

Which kind of makes me feel bad, 'cause I like things here to be fun, but the reality is, I'm not feeling very fun.

And I haven't for a couple weeks.

I have a bad attitude. I have approached everything in a totally negative way, with only a few exceptions. Life has been a chore rather than a blessing. I don't look forward to going home, because the house is a disaster and just represents how much more work I have to get done. I don't look forward to going to work because, well, it's work. And I'm tired.

I'm picking fights with people I love, just because I have a bad attitude. I'm growling at my kids, just because I have a bad attitude. I am snarky and sarcastic at times where I should be supportive, caring, helpful. Yep, just because I have a bad attitude.

I have a great job, where I get to work with amazing people and do something I love.

I am supported in that endeavor by a husband who wants me to succeed, and is willing to take on the role of single dad for months on end while I work ridiculous hours.

I am surrounded by 3 kids who love me, and understand that this time of year is going to be tough, and mommy time is going to be limited, but that it means that we have lots of opportunities for fun stuff in the summer.

So what the heck is my problem!?

"Attitude:manner, disposition, feeling, position, etc., with regard to a person or thing; tendency or orientation, esp. of the mind" (definition as found here)

And I'm ready to chuck mine in the round file.


  1. Megan... Hi, just found you from SHells blog.. and let me say you could have wrote this for me... I have had a major bad attitute lately, down, upset..e tc.. to the point friends have pulled a "intervention" type thing on sunday wanting to get me bak to my oldself... so I know exactly how you feel. Thanks for posting it. Just try to think positive. Our life is suppose to be a blessing and we are suppose to be happy. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs Your way! from a new friend. :)

  2. Hey girl! So sorry you are having a tough time right now.. stick with it you are almost through the storm (assuming that ends april 15th ;) I will keep you in my prayers.. keep you head up and that smile on your face! (((you)))

  3. We can't all be sunshine and roses all the time. It's okay to post something that isn't upbeat.

    I have to check my attitude quite a lot. Because I'll start focusing on all the negative and then I freak out completely.

    I hope that you can find some balance and be able to relax.

    And then tell me how you did it.

    Thanks for linking up.

  4. Hey ... I bet you felt better after writting that! I hope so- sometimes being negative is just a part of being human :-) And now this mortal is following you. Stop by our place when you can!

  5. I just started following you last week. Found you through The Mommyhood.
    Sorry to hear that you're not feeling like or acting like yourself. Hope that you find your way over this mountain and you sail up and over.

  6. I can totally relate. Just yesterday morning I caught myself thinking "I just wish today was over already." Then I realized that I am just wishing my life away. I don't want to feel this way, but when life is overwhelming it's hard not to. When life gets like this I try to remind myself that it is just a season and that it will pass. Then I try to look forward to a time when things will lighten up and I can get a break. Sometimes that is all I need to get over the hump. Hope you can find a break soon! ;)

  7. You are entitled to be cranky right now. Hang in there, you're almost done.

    Praying for you today!

  8. I posted about nearly the same thing! I've been in a terrible funk! We moms are entitled to our bad days too!

  9. I can totally relate to every word you've said here. I do the same thing with my attitude and not being able to break through the negativity.

    I started doing things that I loved, like sewing or walking in the morning and that has really helped me get my act together.

  10. I feel you!!! I have three kids and work like crazy as well. I have been grumpy too!! Sounds like there are a lot of us out there! Hope you don't mind, I am following your adventure now!

  11. I'm sorry you are feeling this way right now. We all go through it though.

  12. I am having a lot of the same feelings lately, I hate it being a negative person. Just think in a few weeks tax season will be over and you can go back to a normal routine again. :)