I have not done a good job in that seeking. But, I've been sought out. And I'm super excited to be starting a Beth Moore study with a group of women who also are moms and bloggers. But most importantly, they are women. Women who, like me, know that there are bigger and better things out there for us.
I spend a lot of time thinking about all of the ways that I fall short. The times when I am not as "there" for my family as I want to be. The days where I just don't give all I can at my job. The nights when I come home and am not as supportive to my husband as I could be.
And that's where I find that I'm most insecure. I fall short of the lofty goals I set for myself, and suddenly, I've failed. I don't acknowledge my own successes, I dwell on that which I did not complete to my own level of satisfaction. And I'm NOT that person! I'm strong, and self-assured, and darn good at what I do! Right now, some of my own sense of failure is a function of sheer exhaustion, (hello, tax season!) but some of it is a push. A desire to do and be all I want to be.
More importantly, to be MORE than I even know I CAN be. Even as I fall short of my own goals, I know there is so much more out there, waiting on me.
And frankly, that's pretty cool.