Saturday, March 6, 2010

Falling Short

When I began (again) with this blog, this little glimpse into my mind, part of my own personal goal was to use this place to deepen my faith and build my spirit. To find others with whom I could share these things, and grow together.

I have not done a good job in that seeking. But, I've been sought out. And I'm super excited to be starting a Beth Moore study with a group of women who also are moms and bloggers. But most importantly, they are women. Women who, like me, know that there are bigger and better things out there for us.

I spend a lot of time thinking about all of the ways that I fall short. The times when I am not as "there" for my family as I want to be. The days where I just don't give all I can at my job. The nights when I come home and am not as supportive to my husband as I could be.

And that's where I find that I'm most insecure. I fall short of the lofty goals I set for myself, and suddenly, I've failed. I don't acknowledge my own successes, I dwell on that which I did not complete to my own level of satisfaction. And I'm NOT that person! I'm strong, and self-assured, and darn good at what I do!  Right now, some of my own sense of failure is a function of sheer exhaustion, (hello, tax season!) but some of it is a push. A desire to do and be all I want to be.

More importantly, to be MORE than I even know I CAN be. Even as I fall short of my own goals, I know there is so much more out there, waiting on me.

And frankly, that's pretty cool.


  1. Something that keeps me going is a little saying that is "If you are not falling behind, then you are not taking advantage of every opportunity given to you"
    If I was just sitting around twiddling my thumbs (does anyone actually do that anyways?) then that would mean nothing is required of me to do.
    By being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, worker, etc. there is a lot asked of me by so many different people that require different levels of my attention and ability. Sometimes it is overwhelming, but it is refreshing to know that I am trusted with all these opportunities at the same time.
    Make sense?

  2. I think we all fall short, but isn't it amazing that we get a fresh start every morning?

    Looking forward to doing this study with you, dear friend.


  3. Wow, this is exactly what I could use too. Looking forward to following it on your blog!