Through the Looking Glass

While other’s write their Year in Review posts, I’m thinking I’m not so crazy about looking back.

Instead, I’m looking forward.

I’m looking forward to spending more time with the people I love, and being glad they are with me.

I’m looking forward to reading more, relaxing more, enjoying more.

I’m looking forward to summer vacations, swimming pools, trampolines, swing sets, and bike rides.

I’m looking forward to enjoying life with my children and my husband.

I want to live more, love more, learn more. I want to create beautiful things. I want to paint the walls, replace the carpet, plant a garden.

I want to be ok with who I am, and raise my kids to be ok  with who they are, while pushing them to be the best “them” they can be.

I want to lay in the grass, in the sunshine, and smile.

I want to catch fireflies. I want to cook something new. I want to spend a day on the lake. I want to go fishing, and tubing, and lounge on a float.

I want to camp, and hike, and drink wine by a fire.

To teach, to encourage, to lift up.

To bow down, to kneel, to surrender.

To live.

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Pssst.

I think I had to much wine tonight.

Let me rephrase – I had the right amount of wine, I just had it in the wrong order with the food.

So instead of a gentle warmth, I’m feeling a bit tipsy. (And I have some VICIOUS hiccups. I need a quality “BOO” here, people.)

I’m feeling a bit worn down, though. I’ve been MIA as a function of some political activism *GASP* that I’ve been doing.

I gasp because, frankly, I avoid politics like the plague. Politicians are rarely working for me. I don’t agree with most of their ideas, I’m so tired of the whining, fussing and carrying on. I’m a mom. I get to hear that crap every day, and when I do, at least it’s from a 7 year old, instead of a 47 year old.

But I’m being active. Our state has royally screwed up how they fund the schools. They took a broken process, broke it a little bit more, and now our schools are paying the price. So, I’m canvassing. I’m calling. I’m advocating a tax increase (more *GASP*) to fund a broken process.

I’m trying to help put an adhesive bandage on a wound, with the goal of some follow-up treatment with administration. There are certainly areas where our school corporation could reduce costs, and I hope to help uncover those. I want to help reduce costs, improve efficiency, make the school system better, over the next 6 years.

In the meantime, I’m working to make sure we have solid operating capital to get us through while we fix the issues.

But not tonight.

Tonight, I’m drinking another glass of wine.